Wow, I can honestly say that I have no idea where this year has gone. Shortly after my last blog, I received an opportunity that I could not pass up. I accepted a full-time position as the Creative Account Manager for a product design company called UX Cabin. I am blessed to be working from home with an incredibly talented team that spans the globe. If you read my previous blog, you know that one of my Dad’s last wishes was that I would find happiness in my career path, and I am thrilled to say that I finally have! After 17 years of stumbling into roles, I never felt truly fit who I am; I finally feel like I am going in the right direction with a company I believe in and where I am excited to keep growing!
I have learned so much in the last nine months. I have been challenged to grow into a direction I am grateful for. I learned how to launch and produce a podcast that already has well over 3,000 downloads and run social media across five total platforms (3 platforms that I had not done for Be True) that has been growing steadily month over month. I have also learned how to use lots of software that can make life so much easier.
How this has impacted Be True this year
Be True had to be set aside while I have been learning and growing in a new role and company. I only have so much brainpower, energy, and hours in the day to dedicate to my family, my work, and my health. Something needed to pause during this new transition.
Be True was created to help people with anxiety. Still, it was also a way to grow and focus my energy after discovering that the company I had worked at for several years would no longer invest in my career growth. I knew it was time to take matters into my own hands and find a way to grow in the right direction.
After years of being told that every company would be the same, I had started to believe it. I was too afraid to leave that company, so I took the idea that had been hanging out in the back of my mind, expanded upon it, and launched Be True in the spring of that year.
Doing the work when you recognize your mental health is at risk
The sense of accomplishment when our small business started to blossom changed my perspective and showed me that I could do hard things outside of my comfort zone. When I finally decided to leave the corporate world, as I mentioned in a previous blog, my health was in terrible shape, and I knew something needed to change.
My mental health was at risk after years of gaslighting from my career and then the loss of my Dad. I decided it was time to find someone who could help me. I have started to call the mess that was 2020 the spaghetti bowl of traumas. With so many life-changing events happening in such a short time, my brain decided that everything was a trigger, and my responses were no longer typical for me. My anxiety and depression were at an all-time high, and I was not sure how to manage them any longer.
My therapist has been an absolute gift this year. She has helped me start to heal the damage and helped me to realize that I do not have to feel responsible for everyone else all the time. Her support also helped me through another loss eight months and one day after I lost my Dad. I lost someone I have considered a second Father figure for 20 years. He was not only our Deacon who married us, Baptized our girls, led me through Women’s Renewal, and helped me say goodbye to my Dad. He was also the one who checked in on me every month after my Dad passed, he was always Izzi’s Veteran on Veterans Day, and he was a cherished member of our family. Losing him was another massive loss for our family and brought up a lot of emotion from when I lost my Dad. It still breaks my heart that these two amazing men are no longer here with us, but having help to work through all of it is comforting.
So aside from learning a new role and focusing on family, I have had a lot of work to do to untangle the traumas that have changed me forever and work on each separate thing to begin leading a healthy life for my mind, body, and soul. This work is draining and challenging, but I have seen improvements and know that it is all worth the investment of time and energy.
What this new stage has taught me
This year of new growth has taught me so many things.
- It helped me learn to say no to things that no longer serve my family or myself. I no longer do things out of obligation but out of choice.
- I learned that having someone to talk to and bring an unbiased perspective to any situation is an immense help. Finding a person to help you heal is a blessing and a gift.
- It is ok not to know how to do everything; you can still get a job that you love and have the opportunity to learn and grow in the areas you need to develop. Having an entrepreneurial and humble spirit will give you an edge for the right company, and any company that does not value this spirit is not worth your time or energy.
- Setting something aside for the sake of your mental, physical and emotional health is not a sign of weakness, and it does not make you a quitter. It simply means that you know your limits and are unwilling to stretch yourself beyond your capacity. Take the time you need and give yourself grace, whether it is a week, a month, or years – it doesn’t matter because you can still be growing in the right direction while you take a pause.
- And most importantly, you can’t put a price on peace. In a world where so many people are primarily focused on their title, their paycheck, or what kind of car they drive, it is easy to sacrifice your peace to try to keep up. Take a side step out of the race and watch the others pass you. Think about what they are chasing. Do you even care about those things as long as you and your family are safe and well cared for? If not, do not jump back into that race! Stroll in a new direction that is focused on YOUR true peace and happiness instead. It is so much more enjoyable, trust me!
So what is next?
Now it is time to keep doing the work on my physical and mental health, continue being present for my family, and keep up my learning path and growing along my fresh new career journey. And if that is all that I can muster, I am ok with that, but I am finally starting to feel like I can begin to put a small focus on Be True again, so I want to take advantage of that extra energy.
As we near the Holiday season, we have a show coming up that I am excited to attend as a vendor. It will be our first show in a year, and it will be a great one to check out if you live in the North East of Ohio! Keep an eye on our social channels to learn more about where we will be and when. I am excited to see old friends and meet new ones as well.
In the meantime, I hope that you are all well and that if you are challenged this year with loss or trauma of any kind, I pray that you are willing to get the help you need to make positive change and heal. No one can do this for you; it must be a decision you make for yourself and then dive into the process of helping yourself to heal.
Signing off for now!
Sending love to you all, and thank you for reading this update! If we do not see you at the show, we wish you a very Merry Christmas and Happy Holiday season. We hope you get to spend this special season with the people you love the most. Cherish the moments, make the memories, hug your loved ones and find your peace.